Shirking Responsibility

In the past, I’ve found ways to shirk responsibility.  It all started with girls.  In fact, one girl in particular in high school.   There I was, standing there minding my own business when this girl walks up to me in the cafeteria and says with the utmost conviction and gumption “We have slept together.”

Stunned silence on my part.  I believe my mouth was hanging open as I stared at her, looking her up and down.  My first thought was – who the hell are you?  Honestly, I had never laid eyes on her in high school and I knew that I didn’t go to elementary school with her.  My second thought was – please god no, do not let her be pregnant!

The next words out of her mouth were, “In fact, we have shared a bed together on many occasions.”  My stance changed to the defensive, peering deep into her eyes and thinking “I have no clue who you are” then glaring at the few people who had gathered around us, seeing if I could garner any clues as to her identity.


A cold sweat permeated my body.  More people were looking over at our small group; pointing, whispering.  I fully expected someone to wheel in a baby carriage and for her to launch into the full blown antics that I had witnessed on Jerry Springer – only this time there was no Steve to break things up.  I knew I had to do it.  I never imagined that at the age of 17 I would be in this situation.

“I’m terribly sorry, we may have slept together, but I seem to have forgotten your name.”

Thank you Jennifer.  It turns out that we had slept together.   On many different occasions.  And we thoroughly enjoyed each other’s company and played with each other for hours.

As toddlers.  Over 15 years ago.

Jenn had just switched over to my high school and her mom had told her to look me up.  We had a few mutual friends that were in on it and from that point on I never looked at women and responsibility the same way again.  I figured that I had dodged one bullet, so let’s see how many others I can dodge.

It took me another 12 years to figure out that my behaviour was hurting not only myself, but those that I cared about as well.  I had created this wonderful behavioural pattern around shirking responsibility – being accountable to no one except myself (and I was not hard on myself either) and it was beginning to show to those around me.  I had started the 31 Day Sprint as a way to hold myself publicly accountable for my successes and failures and it was not until today when I fell back into my old habit that I realized that something more drastic had to be done (hence this post).

I’ll admit that right now I’m struggling with the shift in focus from marketing activities to sales activities.  I know that this week and next week I will overachieve on my daily numbers but it will be the weekly numbers that will hurt the most – units sold, sales volume (in terms of $$), and income (%age).  I will fail miserably at achieving a sustainable level of sales activities to translate into income.  I expect this failure knowing that I will use it to learn and adapt and figure out a way to turn it into a success.

I’ve been in business too long for myself without having to produce a weekly income that drastic measures have to be taken – I have no choice but to continue to break my behavioural pattern.  Wednesday morning when I wake up I will do the two things that I fear most – only because these two activities will help me become successful – workout for an hour and call my clients and business associates.  I’ve relied far too long on technology (email, social media, etc) and I’ve been content with the mediocre results for far too long.  Now is the time to overachieve.  Now is the time to get results.

Hard numbers for today – 67 (12 over daily average)

Marketing – 62
Sales – 3
FLH – 2 (0 fitness, 1 hobby, 1 life)

When I wake up, it will be a new day.  I relish the opportunity for another woman to give me the opportunity to dodge more bullets – just not when it comes to those that I care about most.

Goodbye my sweet delicious friend

There were a few delays leading up to today and not only with the start of The 62 Day Sprint.  Last week I was bogged down on one project that turned out to be a dud.  On top of that the mail server crashed, had to replace my phone system, and was down for most of last week – much to the frustration of clients and business partners.

Today turned out to be a fun time of going through 250 emails (another 100 to go through tonight), returning phone calls, and getting back in touch with people.  I have a feeling that I will crash early tonight and pick everything back up tomorrow morning (no more burning the midnight oil – see below).

Points for today – 228

Marketing – 225
Sales – 0
FHL – 3  (2 fitness, 1 hobby)

Someone very near and dear to me has been constantly asking the same two questions:

1.  What is your plan for the next 12 months?

2.  Where do you want to be 5 years from now?

There are a few complications in my life right now that prevent me from seeing beyond the next 3 months.  I do know that in the next three months I will be launching stage two of Ten Million Entrepreneurs, have a better idea of where I will be living full time in 2012, have a steady form of personal income, and will have helped over 3,000 entrepreneurs since I launched Gobi (only 9,997,000 to go).  My plan for the next 12 months is the same as it has been for the past 12 months – build a business / an organization that helps entrepreneurs while allowing me to run it from anywhere in the world.  Five years from now, I imagine that I’ll still be doing the same thing except on an exotic beach or from a tree-house in a rain-forest.

It’s true – no more burning the midnight oil.  I’ve cut out coffee and most forms of caffeine with the exception of green tea and other low caffeine teas.  I realize that green tea is not that low in caffeine, however I use loose leaf green tea and fill the cup back up with hot water using the same leaves throughout the day.  Why would I bother to cut out something that I enjoy so much – I was using it as a crutch.  Feeling tired – pound back a double espresso.  Still feeling tired? Try a double double from Tim ‘Homophobe’ Hortons.  So the crutch is gone after four days of headaches and I’m substituting in decaf in the morning and green tea the rest of the day.

The only other thing I have to do is get a haircut and trim up the mustache before Wednesday.  I want to keep the handlebar mustache but it makes me look ugly – even uglier than I looked before.

31 Works Days

The hard numbers:

  • 1569 marketing points
  • 22 fitness points
  • 7 life / hobby points
  • 1598 points!
  • 5,927.27% productivity increase from the first week to the last week
  • Weekly average points increased from 2.2 per day to 133
Overall, I feel pretty damn good.  So good that I made a wee presentation for you!

In case you didn’t take a look at the presentation, yes I’m doing another 31 days of excitement.  However, the focus this time around is not on marketing, but on sales.  I will be tracking marketing, FLH (fitness, life, hobbies), and sales, but the majority of my focus will gradually shift from marketing to sales.  The best part is, the next 31 Day Sprint (aka The 62 Day Sprint) starts today!

On that note, I will leave you with a quote:

“Every morning in Africa a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed. Every morning a lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death. It doesn’t matter whether you are a lion or a gazelle – when the sun comes up, you’d better be running.”


Lunch Break!

Lunch today consisted of a smoked turkey sandwich and homemade potato and leek soup.  I enjoyed a cup of hot black tea while watching an interesting TED talk (there’s a blurb below on TED).  The speaker that I was watching was Hasan Elahi and he presented an interesting idea on the commoditization of personal information from the perspective of the authorities that would eventually make them obsolete in the way that they currently approach national security.

Hasan Elahi’s bio

Hasan Elahi’s TED Talk

Hasan Elahi’s web site

I find the same thing is happening all around us – information has become a commodity.  The act of teaching information and the act of gathering information will eventually become obsolete and replaced with the act of teaching understanding.  I wonder if it’s possible to get a PhD in Understanding?

(A quick note on The 31 Day Sprint – no numbers will be posted for Day 30 and 31.  Instead a summary of The 31 Day Sprint will be posted on Day 32).

TED: TED is a nonprofit devoted to Ideas Worth Spreading. It started out (in 1984) as a conference bringing together people from three worlds: Technology, Entertainment, Design. Since then its scope has become ever broader. Along with two annual conferences — the TED Conference in Long Beach and Palm Springs each spring, and the TEDGlobal conference in Edinburgh UK each summer — TED includes the award-winning TEDTalks video site, the Open Translation Project and TED Conversations, the inspiring TED Fellows and TEDx programs, and the annual TED Prize.  More info here.